Fuck.

I've been so off track I just wanna kill myself.

I hate my girlfriend and best friend. I mean I love them but hate them. Both are so fucking thin and perfect (my girlfriend especially) and it makes me want v to jump off the nearest cliff.

Even when I'm thin (becsuse I fucking WILL be) I'll still be ugly
My face is a mess in general.
I will be thin.

I will be before I die.

Intake:

This morning I was craving pancakes.
I made Blogilates bsnana and two egg recipe but added cinnamon and vanilla.

Estamating to 400 since I had it w/ syrup (syrup is loaded with calories guys)

I purged that but I'm keeping the calories

Just now I ate half a cheese sandwich, bread was 80, cheese about 100, and butter which is another 102 calories

400
102
100
80

Total intake: 682

Damn..
Most calories come from little condiments like syrup, butter, vanilla, etc.
WATCH OUT FOR THOSE THINGS GUYS!
They add calories so sneakily. If anything eat your food plain so you KNOW what's in them.

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Weight in for the day: 276.8!

Blah.

I'm doing the K-Pop diet... basically fitting meals into 2 small paper cups a day.
For K-Pop stars, they eat 3 a day, buuuut I don't think I need 3...
lol.

MY highest weight was 285, about 2 weeks ago, so I guess this is alright.
About 9 lbs down.

Gotta lose more each week though.
>.<
Have some thinspo~

Asian thinspo is my favorite. The girls are sooo tiny!

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