Ugh.

Fucking ate an entire footlong sub earlier today. Did not purge.

Fuck my life.

"I'll lose weight in no time" I said
"LosIng weight'll be eaaaasyyy I just won't eat!" I tHouGht
"Fasting isn't hard at all pffff" I rEpeaTed!!!

My girlfriend is sooo skinny. She's dating a fat blob does she even reAlize omg

I feel bad for her I feel like I should break up with hrr until I'm a size 2 like she deserves better.

My weigh in today was 281.8

2 lbs down... prolly just water weight.
Ugh.
I wanna get into the 100's before January and I KNOW it's possible... if I could just stop eating.

If I'm still this size by October I'm killing myself.

Ugggh.

Damn it.

I ended up eating cheeze-its (127 cals)
And a PBJ (510 cals)
2 bottles of water using flavor powder (10 calories)
Total intake: 647 calories

Then I purged.

I'm so pissed off I wanted to fast.
I can't fast anymore.

When I was younger, I was able to fast for a whole week.
Now I can't get through one day.

I'm pathetic but as long as I don't consume any more calories, I'll be okay.

Stay♡Strong

Introduction

Hello everybody!

Let me first start off by apologizing for any typos ahead of time. I am currently using my phone as my computer is the most useless piece of shit ever.

Secondly, let me introduce myself!
I am Kristy, currently a 19 year old moocher who is willing to do ANYTHING to lose weight.

All my life, I have been fat.
I don't even know what it's like to be a normal weight.
Ever since I was a little kid, doctors have told me to lose.

I never did.

I gained and gained and at this point I am 283.6 lbs.
That's right folks.
I'm close to 300 fucking pounds.
If I don't change now... my God I have no clue!

I refuse to gain any more.

My ultimate goal weight is to get down to 115 lbs by the end of next year.
Can I do it?
Not sure!

See, I've always wanted to know if an obese person could ever get down to a very thin weight.
We always see people going from, say, 300 to 140 and are stuck there.
What if I wanted to end up much less than that?
What if I wanted to be a size 2-3 and not a 10?
Why should fat people accept staying at a middle/average weight?
I want to be THIN.

I want to know that feeling.

And I'm ready to aim for it.

For the last few days, I have been binging and sometimes purging.
Now I am ready to fast.
I plan on fasting for a month, perhaps have a couple small meals in-between if I, you know, feel like I may die!

First goal weight is by January 1st and I wish to weight 200lbs or less!
Think I can lose that much in only 4 months?
I certainly do!

I have so much will power right now at 7:07 am.

I hope it lasts.

Wish me luck, if anyone reads this!
Will update everyday.

Stay♡strong, we WILL make our goals! xoxo